My heart aches

Have you ever felt love so deep in your heart for someone you hardly even know? There is a force so strong that draws people so powerfully together, it is beyond expaination or reason. This force is none other than love. You cannot reason with it. Nor explain it. It is just there. How is it possible that one get seduced by this temptress called love? She pulls at our hearts until we can take no more. And lures us in in our weakest moments. All I can say is, "wow".

Get Motivated!

Raw Chef Richard Hemsley invited me to the Get Motivated Seminar. I had an incredible experience. It really addressed my situation with my singing. I think I can get up enough courage to start my singing telegram business. I just need to partener up with someone who has confidence that can help me through it. It was AWSOME!!! I felt that God was really encouraging me and inspiring me to follow throught with this. I just need a support system. If anyone gets the chance to go to one of these seminars, don't miss it!

More on my singing

Forgot to label my last post. I sang for my daughter's choir class, and her teacher said that I need to audition for the same thing my voice teacher said to audition for. I am working up enough nerve. I need to find a singing support group, since I found my raw food support group. I hope to keep up now that I am settled in.

Down to 106.5 lbs!!!

Wow! I did not realize how much time has passed. Moved to Sacramento and joined up with other raw foodies. Looking a lean 106.5 lbs. I figured I should start exercising to get rid of the extra giggly flab around my midsection.
My moved to Sacramento was a great thing. I joined rawsacramento yahoo group and I volunteer for Synergy Chef Collabrative and Chef Richard Hemsley. I am trying to learn as much as I can about raw food prep. Although, the best way to eat that I found is keeping it simple. I had been doing a lot of juicing, but still eating a lot of nuts and dehydrated foods,until I went to hear Victoria Boutenko and her daughter Valya speak. Now, I have been making green smoothies everyday. It helped me to get off my platue and lose some more weight. I stopped all fats for a week to get rid of a fungus I believe I had. Who knew that fats encouraged fungus growth, not fruit(sugar).
I met many great people who work in the raw kitchen. Amazing! I am usually the loner type that just stays at home, but meeting these great people help me to get out of my box. Also, losing over 60lbs. and having more confidence helps, too. Thank you rawsacramento!
Trying to get back into singing. Need more confidence with that. My voice teacher said that I need to just get out and audition.

Letting go of the fear to change

Wow. A lot is happening in my life. I had a phone consultation with Dr. Fred Bisci, 40+ years raw foodist. It was very educational. Later in the day, I went to a bankruptcy lawyer. He told me as of today, I am debt free and to cut up my credit cards. I had to, well.... I am still going through online shopping detox. Phew!!!!! This is going to be tough. No more ordering from Sunfood.com or therawfoodworld.com. 24 hours have not passed, and I am getting online shopping withdrawl shakes. That's the wonder of making changes in your life. If one thing changes in your life, everything else is bound to follow. It's kind of like The Blood Gas Theory that is in Matt Monarch's book Raw Success.

Change is happening in all aspects of my life. It is scary. Fear always stops us from changing and moving forward. But, in the end everything will work out for the better. I have faith in the raw food way of life and that I can heal. What I am trying to say is that if we hang on to the present or even the past, we will never know how good the future can be. In raw food terms...if we afraid to commit to a raw food diet, we will never know what optimum health is like. Come join the raw food way of life and experience change in your life!!!

Raw journey to self discovery-Part 2

So, jumping to March of this year. Again taking voice lessons. Again constant sore throat. Wow! I just realized that writing these blogs can be eye opening. All my life I have always wanted to sing, but my insecurities would always lead me to other things that I could invest my interests in. Of course I have always had a passion for natural health, but my first love is singing. When one is heartbroken by ones first love, one wants to run away and hide or look for another love to avoid healing from the pain of the breakup of the first love. Fear holds us back from the area in our lives we need to heal and diverts our attention to other things to avoid the painful experiences of our past. Wow! I guess this is what starting the raw food journey to healing is like. Not only are we healing our bodies, we are healing our heart and spirit.

Back to my story...My first appointment to make an appointment with the GI doc, I stepped on the scale. 168 pounds with shoes off!! I knew right there that I had to take responsability for my on health. Thousands of dollars later I was told that the results of the upper GI was not cancer. Most people wouild be happy, but I was frustrated. What was it ? What caused my gastritis? And how can I heal naturally without drugs. Thru my search, I found that nothing made sence except the raw diet. It was like a lightbulb went on above my head. Ding! All my life my weight had the yo yo effect. Raw is the only diet that makes sence.

This brings me back to the beginning of the story. When I was almost 24 years old a psychic told me during a reading to ask my parents about my birth. When I did, I found out that I was adopted(actually taken from the hospital) by the parents who raised me. My point is that I don't know my genetic makeup, but with a raw food diet I am sure I can heal mind, body, and spirit.

Currently, I am at 135 pounds and I am not proud to say that it was done without exercise. But, I know I need to start. Help!!KevinGianni!!!!!

My Story Part 1

When I was a month away from my 24th birthday, I found out something that changed my life forever. After four and a half years of collage, starting three different majors, and no degree, I dropped out of Humboldt State University. My father and I had to keep it a secret from my mother for my father would never hear the end of it. I dropped out to go to beauty school. Wait. Maybe I should go back even further.
As a child, it seems like I was always on some kind of antibiotics, asthma medication, or something. One might say that I was pretty healthy, but looking back on it now, I feel that I was not. How healthy can one be eatting condensed cream of mushroom soup tuna cassarole and hamburger helper? Yuk! For some reason, I knew in my spirit that that food could not be life giving. Maybe that's why I always complained about my mother's "cooking". But, then again, what kid doesn't? And, just like David Wolfe, I grew up on Lucky Charms and Flintstone Vitamins.
In college my health was not that great. It seemed I had a neverending bronchitis, and the summer before my twentyfirst birthday I had strep for four months. You know what that means. More antibiotics! I got so tired of taking antibiotics, I begged my dad to pay for a toncilectomy. You see at that time in my life I was studying classical voice training(that's another story, yet connected). Having a sore throat was not an option. Discouraged with my singing, and college in general, I dropped out and went to beauty school.